or the unBeat
Right before I met Vincent
in 1959
the year Billie Holiday died
whose last performanceI attended and
whose lifeand death hangs me out still.
I lean against the outward cry mourning
the death of jazz singing
Pissed off and absurd we of
the New York group staged a reading.
I hate readings, but that is just me, a bad sport.
Actually, I caved in to friends
JK was there and
gCorso,
and Allen, of course, WB (who invited
me) They were with me on
that stage back to front 7:30Read read read
7:40 what is that line in All About Eve
about there being a 'MacBethish air.'7:45, my body, my flask.
JK was drunk and so was Greg,
and in a sex Malanga stupor,
diagonally Allen
was the voice of compassionate sobriety
dumpy as he is0000000000he presided over
an academic brawl
some even took it as live-action poetry
more like a pissing match
Well un the invitation
of loving each others work
we took off our dukes and
found out that we hated each other
after all. I was called faggot
repeatedly, so was Allen
who lives for stuff like that.
Hardly a put down, he was penciling
in the holes in Howl
Oh, those Beats
They really can be crashing bores
not to mention act like a bunch of whores
Kerouac yells to me
"You're ruining American
Poetry O'Hara"
and I yell back
"That's more than you ever did for it."
So John, I'm not going to Frisco
I'm staying here
It's going to be a bubonic summer
To say that
I hate everybody almost
as much as I hate myself would
be too dramaqueeny.
And
then John said fuck off you dramaqueeny
just as I started lying about my age,
then I met Vincent
Vincent met me.
Anyway,We left.